Drowning and Sinking

I miss my old life, my old self.... I miss the days where I can leisurely spend my weekends on things that I enjoy the most. I admit, a tiny part of me is holding into my "what ifs" questions. What if I did not say yes to the offer? What if I waited a bit longer? What if I pursued my masters application? What if what if..? I am drowning. I am slowly sinking and choking to this life full of responsibilities and expectations. No one will save me. No one will dare to save me.